not again

no

i won't let myself be hurt so much again

i'll just deny him my affection

i won't seek him out anymore

hurting myself is a useless thing

so useless and so painful

i will not let this happen to me again

i will stop before i am cut

before i bleed

before my love is torn from my breast

and thrown onto the floor to be mocked and laughed at

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him

i refuse to like him


















but i love him so much, all the same.