HAH!

HAH, NOW WHO'S THE UPDATED ONE!!!

so save me, why don't you?

save me my strength

so i can give it to the earth

save me my mystery

so i can reveal it to waiting eyes

save me my habits

so i can break them of my own accord

save me my love

so i can break my heart

save me the pain

so i can hurt myself

save my the words

so i can tell them to you

save me the misery

so i can cause it

save me my happyness

so i can create it

save me the drama

so i can react

save me my friends

so i can make more

save me my space

so i can leave it

save me the waiting

so i can hold back my excitment

save me my shrine

so i can lock myself in my personal prison

save me my privacy

so i can exploit myself

save me this piece of life

so i can destroy it

save me my life

so i can live it

.....*....."dreams of untold strangeness".....*.....

"so, what did they say?" he asked.

"they said happy monday..." she replied.

"they should know better. mondays are terrible," he retorted, "can you pass me that salt grain?"

-----------nothing-----------------------------------

"(sigh) regulation 22. pass salt grain. location. down two twenty," he said.

"yes, master," she replied, passing the salt grain.

"it just seems so wrong. she's so mechanical...and it's all my fault. maybe i never should've"

he thought.

"sir?" she asked.

"please, you know better. call me MURPHY" he retorted.

"no programming assistance" she replied, automatically.

he sighed again.

"yes?" he said, sadly.

"situation report, sire," she said, looking at the wet ceiling.

"no thank you. please, just relax for a second," he replied.

"relax? no such word in programming, master." she said.

"ok, okay, sorry. please go outside and collect diseases," he sighed.

her smile formed. it was so real looking. he fell into it, even if it did not exhist. her eyes-they even twinkled. they allowed the light of her soul in and warmed her whole face. her red cheeks lit up and-wait.

"she isn't real. none of her. this isn't real. she has no soul. no smile. no twinkle to her eyes. no light. no red. no warmth to her face. no and? wait, that doesn't make sense...oh never mind. just stop now" he thought, frantically.

she turned and retreated out.

"I LOVE YOU" he said...though he knew she couldn't hear or even understand the words.

after all, they weren't in her programming...

LIFE? naw...that's boring!

hello all!!!

it's been too long since i updated. so here i am...updating. please note all the newness. check out my picture!!! also, links are changed...THEY RYME!!! i tried to put up a song but i guess it didn't read correctly so i'll have to keep working on that.

so, LIFE

naw, that's boring!

i tried changing my template but really, this one is perfect....so don't complain...or i will not do anything....or i will!!!

wait, i could do that!!

yeah

here comes soma soma something!!!

read on, my old prosthetic limbs! my little green baize card tables!!!

the birthday from hell!!!!!!!!!!!! (but not since you guys called and cheered me up!)

it's a 0!!!!!!!!!!!!
happy birthday to you (me)
you (me) live/work in the zoo
you (me) smell like something really good
and you (me) don't look like big pig, you idiot brandon!! (or an alpaca, nate, you jerk! lol)

16

today was not so nice but alas, my birthday has come and i am happy still and quite pleased by that fact! i wanted to thank you all for calling me because it really meant a lot to me. it was really good to hear your voices and i am truly greatful!

new days of an all old girl...she's never been smooched!!

ok, so tomorrow is my birthday. i'm pretty excited to finally be sixteen. i'm hoping it will be a really good year for me. i just got home from a weekend in columbus where my cousing got married. it was pretty boring but i kept pretty active. she looked really pretty in her dress and all and her new husband looked very handsome. best wishes to them!

well, i got work tomorrow and i'm excited to be out and about on my birthday. yellow ducky, i got your message but it was too late to call. i'll try you some time tomorrow, k? well, bedtime for this almost-16 year old girly!

i am excited but a little sad...it's a sweet sixteen (sigh). no kisses for me...

lol, but still, 16 is gonna be a sweet year for me (not meant to be a pun, lol) and hey, maybe i'll be kissed this year!!!!!!

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